Exploring my Recovery from Depression

Nothing destined me towards depression and suicide, had I known all I do now much of what I experienced could have been avoided.

The days directly following my suicide attempt were a mess of emotions.  I went from feeling incredibly angry at myself to feeling overwhelmed by joy to be alive. I felt despair, hope, hatred, disgust. It was a difficult and complicated time but the ability to still feel positive emotions convinced me recovery was possible.

This brief flurry of positive emotions provided not only hope but proof that I could recover if I kept trying. I stopped believing my incessant negative thoughts and saw how depression was clouding my thinking and judgement.

Key Strategies

There are lots of things you can do to help with depression. I do everything I can.

Since 2010, I have done my best to undo all the damage depression caused.

I’ve worked on identifying negative thoughts and have been greatly able to stop them from becoming as all consuming as in the past. Physically, I am lucky to have sustained no permanent damage during my suicide attempt. I still have some lingering issues with back pain, but physiotherapy, stretches and specific strengthening exercises have helped with this.

There are easier paths to recovery than the one I took.

I have also added many skills to help manage my anxiety and depression. I completed a course in Cognitive Behavioural Therapy (CBT) before then researching and adding skills in mindfulness. A combination of these two approaches formed the basis for my recovery.

In the summer of 2011, I was fortunate to start seeing a psychiatrist every week or two. I now check-in with him every three to four weeks. I’ve also added an additional medication to help improve my energy levels.

For greater detail on all the aspects of my recovery, please see pages listed above.